I wanted to share my recent musings with my Performance Art HERE.
To sum up a little, I started rehearsal today pretty frustrating. I was way to in my head and not really present. How are ideas going to flow with ease if I'm not present? Read how I got myself out of it :-)
Friday, February 24, 2012
Monday, February 6, 2012
What butoh is for me...at this point
See what I've been up to in my butoh practice and teaching HERE.
It's been such an amazing time to be able to practice butoh and other movement exercises. I feel like I'm reconnecting to an old friend or a past life. It's a time to play, investigate, inquire, transform, create new work, and cleanse. I find butoh very therapeutic for me, which is why I've never stopped doing it because I always want to see what it has to show me next. It opens the channels, frees up space, and may even answer some questions. Or, it's just another way to move my body, in addition to yoga. I feel butoh isn't about technique. It's about everything. Everything about yourself and your body. The way it moves and feels its surroundings. There's no right or wrong way to do it. It can be on a subtle (external) level and/or deep (internal) level. It's really up to the practitioner.
That's what makes it so fun. So come play soon!
It's been such an amazing time to be able to practice butoh and other movement exercises. I feel like I'm reconnecting to an old friend or a past life. It's a time to play, investigate, inquire, transform, create new work, and cleanse. I find butoh very therapeutic for me, which is why I've never stopped doing it because I always want to see what it has to show me next. It opens the channels, frees up space, and may even answer some questions. Or, it's just another way to move my body, in addition to yoga. I feel butoh isn't about technique. It's about everything. Everything about yourself and your body. The way it moves and feels its surroundings. There's no right or wrong way to do it. It can be on a subtle (external) level and/or deep (internal) level. It's really up to the practitioner.
That's what makes it so fun. So come play soon!
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
Moving on to new ventures
It's a time for change and that's what this year has been about. I'm officially taking a break from yoga teaching and massage, and focusing more on my dance and movement. This is something that always pops up for me when I have one of those, "what the hell am I doing?" moments. I will still continue my yoga practice and I know, one day, I will go back to massage, but right now the movements arts are calling me. My creativity needs to be seen, so I started teaching some movement classes to friends to try out my 10-20 years of experience.
It feels great. It feels all me.
So why this shift?
So for the past month, I have been facing some limitations in my body. A month before that, I was in denial. As a yoga teacher and massage therapist, I am body conscious. But I’m starting to realize we can’t always be body conscious 24/7 no matter how much we want to be. When we injure, twinge, twang, or tweek a part of our body, it’s a sign that we may need to slow down a bit.
“Slowing down” is a phrase that used to NOT be in my vocabulary (just ask my husband). If you know me well, in the past, I was one to do, Do, DO! Although I think I was, I don’t think I took many deep breaths.
Currently, I know my Sacroiliac (SI) joint on the left side (back of pelvis) is misaligned/de-stabilized and my right elbow gives some grief, especially when I do downward facing dog. So how did this happen? I know either in a massage session, yoga class, or in my own personal yoga practice, I let my posture go for a split second somewhere and voila! But, the elbow is coming along; however the SI joint still talks to me. Let me emphasize “talks”, as oppose to “screams.” I’m so glad it doesn’t scream at me, so I’m grateful for that. I gotta find something positive out of this.
I am working with a wonderful, experienced Iyengar Yoga teacher, which has been helping tremendously! I’m now looking into Chiropractic work, and will be adding more bodywork for myself monthly.
The biggest shift I had to face was taking a solid break from giving massage regularly and yoga teaching. Once I made this decision, a weight lifted and I could feel my body respond with a big sigh of relief. This is a milestone! “SHIFT HAPPENS!” as one of my good friends says. We all have to take a moment and ask ourselves, “what do I need to do right now to take care of myself?” "What needs to change in order for me to be happy and balanced?"
I asked myself this question and the answer came immediately. I have always had a need for balance, but my ego always told me otherwise. But this time, I didn’t feel anxious, worried, or concerned about anything or anybody. All I cared about was me, my physical and emotional health. If others seriously have a problem with that, too bad.
Have you ever felt overwhelmed by your current schedule? Do you feel scattered, tired/drained, or anxious about getting it all done?
If you have/are, close your eyes, and take a deep belly breath. Notice your feet on the ground,body sensations and sounds around you. After about 30-60 seconds, open your eyes, and take note of how you feel in that moment.
Our body's tell us what's really going on. Our minds only analyze and justify why we should or shouldn't be a certain way.
Be the amazing, powerful person you want to be because you already are.
It feels great. It feels all me.
So why this shift?
So for the past month, I have been facing some limitations in my body. A month before that, I was in denial. As a yoga teacher and massage therapist, I am body conscious. But I’m starting to realize we can’t always be body conscious 24/7 no matter how much we want to be. When we injure, twinge, twang, or tweek a part of our body, it’s a sign that we may need to slow down a bit.
“Slowing down” is a phrase that used to NOT be in my vocabulary (just ask my husband). If you know me well, in the past, I was one to do, Do, DO! Although I think I was, I don’t think I took many deep breaths.
Currently, I know my Sacroiliac (SI) joint on the left side (back of pelvis) is misaligned/de-stabilized and my right elbow gives some grief, especially when I do downward facing dog. So how did this happen? I know either in a massage session, yoga class, or in my own personal yoga practice, I let my posture go for a split second somewhere and voila! But, the elbow is coming along; however the SI joint still talks to me. Let me emphasize “talks”, as oppose to “screams.” I’m so glad it doesn’t scream at me, so I’m grateful for that. I gotta find something positive out of this.
I am working with a wonderful, experienced Iyengar Yoga teacher, which has been helping tremendously! I’m now looking into Chiropractic work, and will be adding more bodywork for myself monthly.
The biggest shift I had to face was taking a solid break from giving massage regularly and yoga teaching. Once I made this decision, a weight lifted and I could feel my body respond with a big sigh of relief. This is a milestone! “SHIFT HAPPENS!” as one of my good friends says. We all have to take a moment and ask ourselves, “what do I need to do right now to take care of myself?” "What needs to change in order for me to be happy and balanced?"
I asked myself this question and the answer came immediately. I have always had a need for balance, but my ego always told me otherwise. But this time, I didn’t feel anxious, worried, or concerned about anything or anybody. All I cared about was me, my physical and emotional health. If others seriously have a problem with that, too bad.
Have you ever felt overwhelmed by your current schedule? Do you feel scattered, tired/drained, or anxious about getting it all done?
If you have/are, close your eyes, and take a deep belly breath. Notice your feet on the ground,body sensations and sounds around you. After about 30-60 seconds, open your eyes, and take note of how you feel in that moment.
Our body's tell us what's really going on. Our minds only analyze and justify why we should or shouldn't be a certain way.
Be the amazing, powerful person you want to be because you already are.
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Teaching butoh
I have been teaching butoh and movement classes and I want to share my experience this far. Click HERE to read my post in my Movement blog.
It's been a great experience sharing all the content I've collected in my training and I'm so happy to see others enjoy it.
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Preparing for the journey
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Hand/Face Study post
Check out my most recent post in my movement blog HERE!
I'm allowing the creative juices to flow and I don't want it to stop. We'll see what comes tomorrow. Maybe a video!
In this particular post, I'm exploring hand contact, gestures and facial expressions. It's something I always use in my performance and movement art. Hope you enjoy!
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
(REALLY!) Receiving what the Universe provides
I can't believe just in the past 3 months, 3 weeks, 3 days what's unfolded. I have to thank and bow to my supportive and loving community for their positive vibes, but also to the Universe. Although, there are times when I want to tell it, "Fuck You!", I still end up thanking it.
Why is it when we ask for things and/or certain people or relationships, that when it actually is presented, we may want to run the other way? "Be careful what you ask for" is a saying I've heard ALL my life and I used to connect it ONLY to the negative things that happened to me. But actually they weren't really negative, they just felt unpleasant at the time. When I look back, I can still say how unpleasant it was, but also ask, what did I learn from it?
As I have been asking for certain things throughout the past three months, it's been a trip to find myself awe-struck, amazed, and, even, aggravated. I say, aggravated, because it's the stirring of the pot that causes that feeling. But when I'm present and just feel it, I realize that this is EXACTLY what I've been asking for and it's been given to me, so why not just play? Why not go for the "ride"?
Now, I can ask, do I want this?
What I've been enjoying about this experience is the power of CHOICE.
I've been playing with choice in a way I never have.
I feel the freedom of saying "yes" or "no" in such a powerful way that once the choice has been made, I can move on.
I feel happy and peaceful with it.
I'm not attached.....
Why is it when we ask for things and/or certain people or relationships, that when it actually is presented, we may want to run the other way? "Be careful what you ask for" is a saying I've heard ALL my life and I used to connect it ONLY to the negative things that happened to me. But actually they weren't really negative, they just felt unpleasant at the time. When I look back, I can still say how unpleasant it was, but also ask, what did I learn from it?
As I have been asking for certain things throughout the past three months, it's been a trip to find myself awe-struck, amazed, and, even, aggravated. I say, aggravated, because it's the stirring of the pot that causes that feeling. But when I'm present and just feel it, I realize that this is EXACTLY what I've been asking for and it's been given to me, so why not just play? Why not go for the "ride"?
Now, I can ask, do I want this?
What I've been enjoying about this experience is the power of CHOICE.
I've been playing with choice in a way I never have.
I feel the freedom of saying "yes" or "no" in such a powerful way that once the choice has been made, I can move on.
I feel happy and peaceful with it.
I'm not attached.....
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