Wednesday, May 30, 2012

Shifting toward ease

Lots of shifts and transitions are happening for all.  It’s amazing what comes up in the midst of it all.

I will be relocating back to the east coast at the end of June.  This has been a desire for my husband and I ever since we moved out to the west coast back in 2003.  Although, we allowed ourselves to settle, get jobs, get married, try new things, fall down, get back up, and try another new thing, it’s time to move back and move on to the next chapter.  

Even though, we are moving back to an area that we spent most of our lives, it’s changed just as much (and even more) as we have.  

For the past month up to now, I’ve been letting go of A LOT of stuff.  As we de-clutter our apartment, I’m de-cluttering my whole being physically, emotionally/mentally, and spiritually.  I’m learning and relearning about myself.  One of things I’m grateful for is my yoga practice.  

I had realized that I hadn’t practiced for a longer period of time.  The most I was doing was 20 minutes here and 30 minutes there.  Then, one day,  I allowed myself to do almost 2 whole hours without realizing it, and so much healing occurred that was needed.

My yoga practice consisted of supported and restorative poses from a sequence out of one of BKS Iyengar’s books, “Yoga: The Path to Holistic Health”.  It was a sequence aimed at decreasing anxiety.  The sequence not only calmed my nervous system, it soften so many areas of my body, that I was able to release emotional tension that I was holding in.  Once I was able to let go, cry and laugh out some of this energy and tension, I felt movement and tingling throughout my body.  I knew I shedded and unloaded some old stuff because afterward, I felt clear, clean, and vibrant.  

We all hold old patterns or ways of being within us.  It’s usually held in the unconscious, and when we don’t deal with them or ignore them, they can work against us and keep us from moving forward in our life experience.  

So when we begin to look at these old patterns that aren’t serving us anymore, and catch them in the present moment, we can start to look at them at a distant and give them more space.  We can acknowledge the emotion(s) around these old patterns and the needs underneath them.  

For me, a lot of my emotional release was sadness and anger.  I was able to journal everything down, and realize that there was a need for acceptance, compassion, and ease, especially through my upcoming east coast move.  I also remembered other people showing up in my space, which were, mostly, other people’s beliefs and stories that I was holding as my own. Again, old patterns, but some of these can be others’ such as parents, teachers, friends, lovers, partners, etc.  

Are there certain words, phrases, or stories that you tell yourself frequently? Could they be keeping you from what you really want or to your most optimal health? Do areas of your body feel hard, tight, or blocked? What would happen and how would you feel if you could soften that area and feel more space?

The choice is always yours!