Thursday, May 28, 2009

What's the Rush?

Seriously, what IS the rush? This rings so true for me and sometimes it's more intense on different occasions. It's something I teach in my yoga classes, yet I find myself not even practicing it at times. But then again, who's perfect? This has been an ongoing issue with me and I really delved into it last week in therapy (I know I posted it in a previous blog entry). This week I've been cutting myself some slack; being more compassionate and understanding towards myself in regards to time and getting things done. If I can acknowlegde myself for getting one thing done, I feel great! Instead of saying, "I didn't do enough" or "I just wasted so much time". Please! I've gotta lot going in my life at the moment and it's things that I love to do, so there! If people were a little easier on themselves about time and their to-do lists there would be more room for joy and ease in their lives.

I know people have kids and families to tend to and I'm fortunate at this point in my life not to have any kids. If I did, it would be a totally different ball game. But this is the way it is and I just take baby steps. One thing at a time. My mom would say that to me when I was younger and I totally didn't know what she was talking about. Then I got older and I was like how do I do that?!

It takes years but I feel like it's slowing coming into play. I've recognized the importance of "me" time and self-care. I can wind down for at least 5 minutes here and there, maybe longer if I'm lucky. When I get those longer moments, I bask in them like I'm on a sunny beach in Hawaii.

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(From yogajournal.com daily insight)

Most of us are judged in life by how quickly we can get things done. Because of this, it's hard to develop the opposite mindset: one of slowing down, getting centered, and relaxing.

Many yoga classes start with a transitional period between public life and the privacy of the practice. In this period, students can simply build awareness of their own breath in order to prepare mentally, physically, and spiritually for practice. For some students, this process of slowing down is extremely difficult. Continually rushing from one activity to the next, many people are used to being hurried and impatient, so much so that it's almost impossible to relax.

If this is true for you, ask yourself: Am I rushing because I'm under stress or am I under stress because I'm rushing? Is it always necessary to hurry so much? Would you be able to run your life just as effectively at a slower pace? If so, take some small steps to slow it down, one day at a time.



IN THIS ISSUE
Being vs. Doing
http://www.yogajournal.com/wisdom/723


In the Zone
http://www.yogajournal.com/lifestyle/199

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Find Balance in Opposition

This also refers to Yin and Yang which is about balance. I love how it's all connected!

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(From yogajournal.com daily insight)



When we think of yoga in the West, we are generally referring to hatha yoga, which is only one branch in the larger system of yoga. Hatha yoga is the branch of yoga that focuses primarily on work in the physical body through postures and breathing exercises.

The word hatha is comprised of two parts: Ha, which means sun, and Tha, which means moon. It's no accident that the sun and moon are basically opposites, because hatha yoga is all about balancing and uniting opposites. For example, the practice involves joining the opposing energies of warming and cooling, of activity and surrender.

In more specific terms, all balance is created by opposition. If you're balancing on one leg, you need to press your standing foot into the floor as you lift your head up toward the ceiling. If you lift up without pressing down, you'll lose your balance and topple over.



IN THIS ISSUE
Count on Yoga: 38 Ways Yoga Helps Keep You Fit
http://www.yogajournal.com/health/1634


Plumb Perfect
http://www.yogajournal.com/practice/1242

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

Anywhere

When I get the chance, I will share a video of the work I'm writing about in this blog entry. This past weekend I performed in the Bare Bones Butoh Presents performance series curated by Bob Webb in San Francisco. Since 2005, I've been participating in this series which gives butoh/performance artists a chance to try stuff out, present works in progress or parts of a bigger piece.

This time I was feeling very adventurous and decided to improv some work. I invited my friend, Deborah of KitsuneButoh to play, as I did with her in her piece. Since my piece was entitled, "Anywhere", I began my dance in the hallway of the building. My intention for the improv was to investigate what happens when another butoh body enters the space/environment as the dance occurs.In a past blog, I shared about dancing in other environments, mostly in the outdoors. But this time was super fun because it's a live-work space so there were people/tenants coming in and out as I moved down the hallways towards the performance space. The only sound I had in the hallway was me, the various generators in the building and the sounds of tenants coming in and out of their space. Of course the audience was there as well. Deborah followed me as a shadow does in different lighting, but with some distance between us. No real contact, but more energetically. It was amazing how I sensed another body's presence even though I couldn't see it. As I viewed the footage, my reactions of this body was interesting because it looked at times as if it was choreographed that way. Since I invited her beforehand, there was no way of knowing when it was going to happen. I experienced this when dancing outdoors in a public space where people got close to me and I felt vulnerable and unsure, but of course, continued with that feeling and the movement to see the manifestation.

As I danced through the audience, I could feel all eyes and energy on me. Then something unexpected occurred at such the right moment. A tenant came out of his apt as I paused in front of it. He froze as I did and as Deborah did too. The reaction was perfect. He continued to lock up and walk down the hallway to leave the building. I don't know what happened. A nonverbal acknowledgment? We continued in the hallway and I went on into the performance stage area to continue.

I'll post the video soon. It was lots of fun!

Friday, May 22, 2009

Neck and Shoulder Projects

I have been doing my best to not get down or negative about it. But I did something to my left neck and shoulder area. There's definitely some space to create there I just seem to diminish it. A few weeks back, I was at the gym doing arm stuff and it started after that. Then I got a massage that day and I feel like it made it worse. However, within a week, the inflammation starts to go down. But when I do arm stuff at the gym that seems to aggravate it.

So I'm thinking that I need to lay off the arm stuff because it's possible I did something incorrect with the weights.

However, being a Holistic Health Practitioner, I know there's "other" stuff going on. Some old, buried emotions and traumas that aren't serving me anymore. I got some support from friends and colleagues about it and even my therapist. We did an exercise around this project and I had a release in our session. I realize how hard it is to really love myself and be gentle with myself around time. I've always had stuff going on in my 3rd and 4th chakras (solar plexus and heart chakras). Feelings of powerlessness around time and anger toward myself. Lately, I've just been feeling like there's not enough time or I'm not giving time to myself. It's like I've forgotten. Then I feel like I have to rush to get somewhere, even though I know for a fact I have hours to get there or do it.

After we did this exercise, I felt more space in that area and throughout my body. It's like my circulatory system undid a clog! I'm taking an anti-inflammatory during the day at least to help me through the day, but I don't like taking those things for too long. I may go to my acupuncturist and see what he says.

Also being a yoga teacher can put some strain on it, but I've chosen to not practice many arm weight-bearing poses for a couple weeks. Maybe some gentle stretches to release whatever's going on there. I'm just working on giving the area as much love as possible. And love to myself.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Thinking about Not Thinking?

Once again a kick-ass read! :-)


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(From yogajournal.com daily insight)

The capacity to think is an essential element of our lives. We need to plan, make decisions, and communicate. The problem is not that we think during meditation, but that our thinking is fixed. Rather than eliminating thinking, one of the basic skills to develop in meditation is to be able to hold and sustain contradictory thoughts—calming the impulse to eliminate the opposition. It's important to keep in mind that the goal is not to eliminate your thinking. Always be mindful that you and your thoughts are aiming to discover engaging, creative, enjoyable ways to meditate—as well as ways to live, awaken, and benefit each other. Think of your thinking not as an adversary but as a spiritual friend.



IN THIS ISSUE
Thoughts on Thinking
http://www.yogajournal.com/practice/587

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

Build Strength from the Inside Out

I just love the daily emails I get from Yoga Journal. I just sent this one to my yoga students. I don't always stress that they should practice at home, but deep inside me, I hope they do a little. My intention is to share the knowledge from this article in hopes of inspiring and motivating my students to begin a home practice of their own. I know when I began a yoga practice I didn't do much at first. But then the more I did it, the more I did! I love to teach because it meets my need for connection and community. I hope in some way, me sharing this knowledge and experience meets theirs.

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(From yogajournal.com daily insight)


Many of us come to yoga to build strength. There's no question that when you're physically strong, you're better able to handle the demands of your day with grace and ease. But you can build endurance and power through almost any athletic pursuit. The beauty of practicing yoga is that it builds inner strength—which you need to ride life's emotional currents with faith and equanimity—even as it tones your body.

One way to build inner strength is by practicing regularly, whether you're feeling inspired or not. That simple act develops your capacity for commitment and for not letting the rest of life get between you and what you know to be essential to your well-being. By being true to yourself in your yoga practice, you enhance your ability to be true to yourself in other situations.

Of course, maintaining a consistent home practice is, in itself, an exercise in strength. At home, the notorious obstacles of procrastination, distraction, and skepticism come up all the time. To help dispel these stumbling blocks, choose a regular time and create a sacred space for your practice. It also helps to have several sequences on hand for those days when you're unsure of what to do next.



IN THIS ISSUE
Block Steady
http://www.yogajournal.com/practice/1742


Home Practice 101
http://www.yogajournal.com/basics/1582

Monday, May 18, 2009

One Moment in Time

This article is so true. Embracing change can be a scary thing for some. Attachment to detachment is a huge step for human beings. I find myself resisting change with certain things such as accepting my body now than it was when I was 21. But also taking my time and being compassionate to myself.

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(From YogaJournal.com Daily Insight)

As the Buddha said, impermanence is the nature of the human condition. This is a truth we know in our minds but tend to resist in our hearts. Change happens all around us, all the time, yet we long for the predictable, the consistent. We want the reassurance that comes from things remaining the same. Yoga philosophy offers an alternative to these tendencies. It is to embrace the powerful truth: the power of living in the unchanging, eternal present.

We can even look to our yoga mat to watch the attachment pattern play itself out. We often find ourselves attached to a never-ending process of "improvement" in our asanas. They do improve quickly at first—in the beginning, we are on a honeymoon of discovery; we grow by leaps and bounds in ability and understanding. After a couple of decades, however, our poses change much less. Oftentimes, we can no longer practice certain poses because of age or injury, yet we feel agitated because we assume that the poses of our youth should be the poses of our middle and old age.

What gives life its juice is the ability to mourn anything fully and simultaneously know it doesn't ultimately matter. In other words, we can live to the fullest when we recognize that our suffering is based not on the fact of impermanence but rather on our reaction to that impermanence.



IN THIS ISSUE
After the Laundry, the Laundry
http://www.yogajournal.com/wisdom/1248


Polishing the Mirror
http://www.yogajournal.com/wisdom/2523

Friday, May 15, 2009

I love giving and receiving massage

I have to say being in massage school has been a blessing. Not only do I get to see the coolest people ever every week, but I get the opportunity to give and receive massage. I have been receiving massage for about 8 years now so I definitely know what I like and don't like. But to be able to give someone a swedish massage is really an awesome experience. You're totally connecting with this person on a different level. They totally vulnerable, yet you hold the space with safety, kindness and openness. You're there to guide them through their own healing.

However, I learned how important it is to take of myself as a practitioner. Stretching before and after is key. I realized when I woke up this a.m. I didn't stretch after class. So I sit at my desk, I notice my body yearning for some stretching, especially after giving swedish.

It's so fun learning this stuff and I don't wanna stop.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

Bare Bones Butoh Presents 14


Yay! I'm performing again! This is going to be very experimental for me this time so you can't miss it. There are also other wonderful performers and dancers that will share amazing stuff. Here's the info:

WHEN: Friday and Saturday, May 22nd and 23rd 8:00p.m

WHERE: Studio 210, located within the Old Sears Building at 3435 Cesar Chavez (inset from the corner of Cesar Chavez and Valencia).
There is plenty of on the street parking. It's four blocks from the 24th St. BART Station, and MUNI buses #27, #26, #14, and #49 will drop you off a block from our door.

TICKETS: $5-$20 sliding scale, no one turned away for lack of funds.
Additional donations are always graciously accepted and gratefully appreciated.

WHAT: Bare Bones Butoh Presents is a Butoh/performance art/ritual performace showcase/platform for local and international performers to show new works we're in the process of developing, try stuff out, hone our improv chops, redo/revisit material we've done before but want to continue to explore, or even to bring out old favorites we would just like to do again. The audience only pays a minimal fee, so everybody wins!

Hosted by a veteran group of Bay Area Butoh performers, Bare Bones Butoh Presents employs the grassroots ethic of working together to sustan our artistic culture.

Thus far in it’s over two year (!) history, every Bare Bones Butoh Presents show is a Benefit Peformance. It serves not only as a performance outlet, but also as a fundraising platform which supports local Butoh and Performance Artists in need. Our 12th show is no exception. All proceeds from these performances go towards enabling Butoh SanFrancisco to bring out of town and international Butoh Masters to our fair burg, thus enriching the entire community.

Bare Bones Butoh is community building and performance all smushed together into two evenings.

THE LINE UP: Martha Matsuda, Karen Light, Bob Webb, Deborah Butler,
Rocio Perez, Luk and Mando, Liz Filippone, Michael Curran, Christina Braun, Karen Light, Rowena Richie, Jennifer Gwirtz

More information contact Bob Webb, bobwebb20@hotmail.com.

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Kicking Caffeine

Not that I'm ready to do this, but it's something that I've toyed with and pondered for many years. I'm definitely off the coffee, but still drink green and black teas. I love the herbal ones, but only drink those in the afternoon and evening. I know it's gonna be tough to get off caffeine. I can already feel the headaches and moodiness. However, this article from yoga journal emphasizes that one should gradually decrease their caffeine intake instead of cold turkey which is where all those nasty side effects bombard your body. I'm definitely not ready to give up my chai tea in the morning, but would consider going the route that they've presented in the article.

Quitting Time
Kick your caffeine habit naturally with these herbal remedies.

http://www.yogajournal.com/lifestyle/1

Thursday, May 7, 2009

Too Full and Empty

Well I guess I'm writing to vent or really to seek connection and understanding from anyone out there. This week's has been tough. I don't know if it's hormonal (possibly) or just a bad week/day.

I know I'm not the only one, but money has been getting me down. I feel like I'm never going to catch up and pay off this debt. My husband and I have gone over our finances together so we know what we need to do. But I HATE it when I don't know what the fuck I'm going to eat for the next week! I know I can cook or make up a bunch of this and that and eat it for a few days, but some days I just don't wanna eat the same shit I had 2 days in a row! Yes I try to think of other people and cultures who have it worse than me, but sometimes I just can't get out of this funk.

Then I wake up this morning with negative self-talk and self-judgments all over the place. It's so loud I want to scream. Why did I buy this or that....you don't deserve it.....you're stupid....it goes on and on.

Oh yes, and then I overload my schedule again! A pattern that I've done for years and really worked hard to put to an end. I realized while talking with my husband about it how I don't know what to do when I have downtime. If I have nothing to do and try to relax, my mind starts going berserk again...you should be doing homework for massage classes....you should be practicing for massage.....do this...do that...blah...blah...blah.....So I made the decision to cancel something today and feel a lot better. But why can't I just be. I talk so much about "being present" that sometimes I can't do it for myself.

I have 2 hours for myself today. I need to ask myself what would I do if I had nothing on my plate? or what if everything is done? Something to meditate.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

Change Your Inner Monologue

This article is definitely a follow up to my post "Out of body, in my head". It's amazing how our minds can take over our lives, literally.

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(From yogajournal.com insight)

If you observe your mind, there is always noise. It begins the moment you open your eyes in the morning and carries on every single second until you close your eyes at night. Perhaps this chatter prevents you from drifting off to sleep. And when you do finally doze off, it may make that rest fitful. When you examine your mental chatter, you will quickly discern that this unending noise has patterns. One of the most powerful and prevalent is your Voice of Judgment. Over time, negative judgments start to accumulate. Eventually they form a huge barrier that sits squarely in front of you on the path to your ideal life.

During the day, try carrying around a journal—or a file, notebook, or sheet of paper. Categorize the types of mind chatter that assault or beguile. Do this for at least two weeks. Are there wild flights of fancy? Elaborate escapist dreams? If so, try to be specific about exactly what types of accomplishments you fantasize about.

The very act of observing it changes your mental chatter. Shoplifting drops dramatically when department stores install surveillance cameras and post signs that they have done so. Similarly, your mental chatter is less able to take you down destructive paths when you become consciously aware of it.



IN THIS ISSUE
Are You Ready To Succeed?
http://www.yogajournal.com/lifestyle/1951

Free Yoga at Sports Basement May Schedule

I'm just spreading the word about this wonderful event that is available to EVERYONE! I've taught a few times and taken classes from some of the teachers. Take advantage!

Yoga Teachers of various styles ( Iyengar Yoga , Ashtanga Yoga , Vinyasa , Raja Yoga , Kundalini , Anasara Yoga , Yin Yoga , Power Yoga , Anna Forrest Yoga , etc.) will present their unique connection with the yogic path.

Sports Basement
1590 Bryant St.
San Francisco, CA
(415) 575-3000

Check out the May 2009 Yoga Teacher Schedule at:
ynottony1.blogspot.com/2009/0...co.html

Check out what others are saying about "Free Yoga Sunday's" at:
ynottony.com/sports%20basement.php

Friday, May 1, 2009

Small-Town Yoga

Another great article! I love how teachers are bringing yoga to small towns (mostly farming communities), especially places that don't have many theaters, restaurants or rec centers. It inspires me to do this back where I grew up in Cape Cod, Massachusetts. I thought about it a year ago and I said to myself and others, "How wonderful would it be to bring all that I've learned in yoga, holistic health and, soon, massage to my hometown?". I got great responses like, "Oh yeah, we need that here" and "Why not? Do it!". Hmmmmm. This could be something to create and work towards in my life and space :-)

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From yogajournal.com daily insight

In places without hospitals or high schools, without movie theaters or a McDonald's, the dedicated gather—often in offbeat venues—to practice. Meet the American yogis who are bringing yoga home.

Teacher by teacher, yoga is making its way into America's nooks and crannies—into farming villages and resort towns, through subfreezing weather and onto dazzling beaches—and improving the quality of life for people who never thought they'd be doing Down Dog. Today, read about yoga communities thriving in America's smallest towns.



IN THIS ISSUE
Omtown Heroes
http://www.yogajournal.com/lifestyle/1842