It's been an amazing experience attending the World School of Massage and Holistic Healing Arts. I have been blessed to meet the people I've met over the past 2 years I've been attending classes and trainings, and I will continue to keep my connections there.
I had the pleasure and honor of being acknowledged and celebrated at graduation yesterday. All that hard work and time really has paid off. So I acknowledge myself for my love and desire of healing work through massage and coaching. I acknowledge my confidence because there was a time in the past I felt I didn't have any. I also acknowledge my husband for his patience, support and sense of humor because I don't know what I would have done without it!
So I want to celebrate this week. ME! For committing myself to the massage program and all that it is. Being in that community yesterday inspired me more and more. I can't say what it is specifically, it's a general feeling of empowerment and confidence. But HUGE! I'm looking forward to what unfolds ahead, and receiving it openly.
WOOO HOOOOO!
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Monday, March 14, 2011
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Running
I can't believe myself, but I went running/jogging last night. This is huge so I acknowledge myself for putting my judgments aside about running and just doing it. It was mostly walk/run, run/walk. I'm starting off slow. My left knee started to tweek a little, and then later on before bed, it was my right hip near the groin area. I know it's my body responding to the running, but I'm still taking it slow and watching the sensations.
I woke up SOOOO refreshed! It was the best feeling ever. I felt clear, energized, and ready for the day. I can't remember the last time I felt this way. I got up earlier than usual, so I meditated, did yoga and then made myself a fruit smoothie!
Backing up a bit, after my walk/run, run/walk, I was walking back to my apt, when I felt this wonderful, inspiration to do something challenging. I declared that I will run in Bay to Breakers in May! It's a 12K run, but a very non-competitive, laid back, fun run. It started in 1906 after the big earthquake hit SF, and this event started as a way to bring more high spirits to the city after all the devastation from the quake. Thousands of people now are running or walking it. It starts at the Bay (Embarcadero area) and ends at the Breakers (Ocean Beach). There's lot of celebration in the air during this event, and I want to be apart of it.
Even if I don't run the whole way, I'm going to finish! My husband is going to join me and whoever else. Some people dress in costumes, or nothing. That's San Francisco! It's like Halloween in the Spring! Wish me Happy Training!
I woke up SOOOO refreshed! It was the best feeling ever. I felt clear, energized, and ready for the day. I can't remember the last time I felt this way. I got up earlier than usual, so I meditated, did yoga and then made myself a fruit smoothie!
Backing up a bit, after my walk/run, run/walk, I was walking back to my apt, when I felt this wonderful, inspiration to do something challenging. I declared that I will run in Bay to Breakers in May! It's a 12K run, but a very non-competitive, laid back, fun run. It started in 1906 after the big earthquake hit SF, and this event started as a way to bring more high spirits to the city after all the devastation from the quake. Thousands of people now are running or walking it. It starts at the Bay (Embarcadero area) and ends at the Breakers (Ocean Beach). There's lot of celebration in the air during this event, and I want to be apart of it.
Even if I don't run the whole way, I'm going to finish! My husband is going to join me and whoever else. Some people dress in costumes, or nothing. That's San Francisco! It's like Halloween in the Spring! Wish me Happy Training!
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
Patterns and Re-patterning
We all have patterns and habits of being. They're neither good or bad because it's a way of survival through our experience. I had a re-patterning session yesterday and I dug up a lot of "stuff" than I thought I would. I knew it was there, and had been there for quite sometime.
My pattern(s) is I'm not worthy and I don't belong. For years (and I'm going back to middle school), I always struggled to belong to something or with a "group." I need(ed) community, acknowledgment, to be seen, to be heard. During my middle schools years, it usually got me in trouble or feeling more unworthy. Then there were years when this pattern didn't show up as much, but came back (which is what they do. They never really go away!).
Lately, for me, there was a certain person who kept popping into my mind. A person, who was my friend for a few years, but then seemed to fall out of my radar and, eventually moved away. It was when every time I would think of this person, it brought back these patterns and feelings. I would say to myself "what is that about?!" It was those feelings of not belonging. There were times hanging out with this person, I felt not worthy enough to hang out with them. Yep, I felt like 12 or 13 years old again. I know I was done with that. Maybe that's because we went our separate ways? I don't know.
During my re-patterning session, it was amazing the mind chatter that came up. I really started to acknowledge it, which had never been done. It brought up some tears of anger and sadness I had kept buried for years. It was finally becoming known. It was given the space that it longed for. I felt a sense of freedom just saying it, "Why can't I be popular?" "What's wrong with me?" "Why did she have to be such a bitch?" Just typing them brings on some relief. After saying it, I had a huge belly release of laughter. I had tingling sensations that traveled down into my feet. The energy moved and is still moving! Feelings of compassion began to enter through me. I didn't feel scared or unsure of myself. I felt love.
At the end of the session, my coach suggested a new pattern to replace the old ones. A positive affirmation to say to myself everyday. We came up with, "I am perfect just the way I am." When I said it out loud, it felt good. I felt empowered and liberated. Again, I was amazed at how much space I felt in my body. Those patterns were really taking up a lot of space.
What are your patterns? What things do you say about or to yourself? Write them down and see if you can track them. When did you first start saying these things? What was happening in your life?
I know it's a lot to think about and feel.
My pattern(s) is I'm not worthy and I don't belong. For years (and I'm going back to middle school), I always struggled to belong to something or with a "group." I need(ed) community, acknowledgment, to be seen, to be heard. During my middle schools years, it usually got me in trouble or feeling more unworthy. Then there were years when this pattern didn't show up as much, but came back (which is what they do. They never really go away!).
Lately, for me, there was a certain person who kept popping into my mind. A person, who was my friend for a few years, but then seemed to fall out of my radar and, eventually moved away. It was when every time I would think of this person, it brought back these patterns and feelings. I would say to myself "what is that about?!" It was those feelings of not belonging. There were times hanging out with this person, I felt not worthy enough to hang out with them. Yep, I felt like 12 or 13 years old again. I know I was done with that. Maybe that's because we went our separate ways? I don't know.
During my re-patterning session, it was amazing the mind chatter that came up. I really started to acknowledge it, which had never been done. It brought up some tears of anger and sadness I had kept buried for years. It was finally becoming known. It was given the space that it longed for. I felt a sense of freedom just saying it, "Why can't I be popular?" "What's wrong with me?" "Why did she have to be such a bitch?" Just typing them brings on some relief. After saying it, I had a huge belly release of laughter. I had tingling sensations that traveled down into my feet. The energy moved and is still moving! Feelings of compassion began to enter through me. I didn't feel scared or unsure of myself. I felt love.
At the end of the session, my coach suggested a new pattern to replace the old ones. A positive affirmation to say to myself everyday. We came up with, "I am perfect just the way I am." When I said it out loud, it felt good. I felt empowered and liberated. Again, I was amazed at how much space I felt in my body. Those patterns were really taking up a lot of space.
What are your patterns? What things do you say about or to yourself? Write them down and see if you can track them. When did you first start saying these things? What was happening in your life?
I know it's a lot to think about and feel.
Monday, May 17, 2010
One Moment in Time
I love what this article says about attachment. It's not just in yoga practice, but also in things that shows up in daily life. In regards to my yoga practice, I've been finding that there are certain poses that are difficult now. I get agitated over this, but I keep going. I acknowledge why I feel agitated and then it moves through me and I continue with the practice.
Since a big shift has happened in my life, I've been wanting to find more time for yoga practice and also "me practice." The "me practice" is not just yoga, but other mindfulness-based practices that I've picked up over the years in my various trainings. I want to embrace each moment when things come up for me, no matter how scary it may be. It's a way of being. It is what is.
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(From Yoga Journal Daily Insight)
As the Buddha said, impermanence is the nature of the human condition. This is a truth we know in our minds but tend to resist in our hearts. Change happens all around us, all the time, yet we long for the predictable, the consistent. We want the reassurance that comes from things remaining the same. Yoga philosophy offers an alternative to these tendencies. It is to embrace the powerful truth: the power of living in the unchanging, eternal present.
We can even look to our yoga mat to watch the attachment pattern play itself out. We often find ourselves attached to a never-ending process of "improvement" in our asanas. They do improve quickly at first—in the beginning, we are on a honeymoon of discovery; we grow by leaps and bounds in ability and understanding. After a couple of decades, however, our poses change much less. Oftentimes, we can no longer practice certain poses because of age or injury, yet we feel agitated because we assume that the poses of our youth should be the poses of our middle and old age.
What gives life its juice is the ability to mourn anything fully and simultaneously know it doesn't ultimately matter. In other words, we can live to the fullest when we recognize that our suffering is based not on the fact of impermanence but rather on our reaction to that impermanence.
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Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Transform Unhealthy Desires
I feel like I do this all the time or not enough of the time! Ha! that's how it goes sometimes. But I know I'm much more present with my emotions, needs and desires than I have ever been. For instance, right now, I know I have a touch of candida (yeast build-up in the digestive system). I know I over-indulged this past week and weekend in comfort foods, sweets and processed foods. I'm pretty good about staying clear of it, but there was a lot going on last week, so I resorted to grabbing this and that to-go which consisted of muffins, bagels, crackers and other high carby, sugary foods. I love it and you know, we all love it! But I do question myself as to how is this benefiting me? or others? Even with other aspects of our lives, acknowledging our desires and impulses. What is it that I really want here? Especially when I feel irritated or frustrated. This article will be a great theme for my next newsletter because it's been such a huge theme in my life. Why do I have a sense of urgency when doing things? What's the rush?
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(From yogajournal.com daily insight)
Every once in a while we all are faced with nagging temptations that take over our thoughts and plague us with an uncontrollable urge to do something we know isn't healthy for us. When those times come—whether it's an impulse to eat an entire bag of potato chips or a desire to say something nasty to a coworker—yogic philosophy tells us to acknowledge our desires, focusing on the emotions that fuel them.
Once you've identified your emotions and how they make you feel, ask yourself what it means in the context of your life. Examine how following the desire will affect you and those around you. Ask yourself: Is the desire beneficial to other people as well as to myself? Could it be hurtful? What will I have to give up to follow this desire? Does it take me closer to my higher Self, or will it create more barriers between my soul and myself? What will I have to give up if I don't follow it? What do I really want by getting what I want? When you've discovered what you really want, voice it, make it an intention, and strive for it in your everyday.
IN THIS ISSUE
I Want It So Bad
http://www.yogajournal.com/wisdom/1839
Gotta Have It?
http://www.yogajournal.com/wisdom/1838
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(From yogajournal.com daily insight)
Every once in a while we all are faced with nagging temptations that take over our thoughts and plague us with an uncontrollable urge to do something we know isn't healthy for us. When those times come—whether it's an impulse to eat an entire bag of potato chips or a desire to say something nasty to a coworker—yogic philosophy tells us to acknowledge our desires, focusing on the emotions that fuel them.
Once you've identified your emotions and how they make you feel, ask yourself what it means in the context of your life. Examine how following the desire will affect you and those around you. Ask yourself: Is the desire beneficial to other people as well as to myself? Could it be hurtful? What will I have to give up to follow this desire? Does it take me closer to my higher Self, or will it create more barriers between my soul and myself? What will I have to give up if I don't follow it? What do I really want by getting what I want? When you've discovered what you really want, voice it, make it an intention, and strive for it in your everyday.
IN THIS ISSUE
I Want It So Bad
http://www.yogajournal.com/wisdom/1839
Gotta Have It?
http://www.yogajournal.com/wisdom/1838
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Being gentle with yourself
Have you ever really been gentle with yourself about anything in your life? I know I haven't, but it's definitely getting started. We all have different personalities, goals and ambitions in life which is great. That's what makes us who we are. But what I've realized in my own life is how "non-gentle" I have been towards myself. For instance, being hard on myself about everything I do, from the tasks I do at my job to cleaning the toilet!
After finishing Vibrational Healing Massage Therapy Level 2 this past month, I have gotten used to being gentle with myself. When emotional things come up and/or I get triggered by something someone said or did, I stop and give myself space by breathing and being with the emotions. I don't judge it or criticize myself for feeling this way or that. It's just the way it is.
So when we got let out early on Sunday, I decided I was going to do whatever made me happy. I spent time with my husband, went and got ice cream from Ben & Jerry's and lounged on the couch watching movies. I knew I had other things I "should" be doing, but I was like, "Fuck it!" I need this time to process, relax and reboot myself after such a busy, emotional weekend. I woke up on Monday feeling great! I never feel energized on Mondays and this was the first time in a LONG time I did. I have to thank myself RIGHT NOW that I took the time to be gentle with myself with everything I'm doing. Hell! I work full time, go to massage school and teach a private yoga session once a week. There must be time for me!
It's good to stop and ask yourself what you want and what you need. are you always constantly going to one thing and then the next? or are you stopping in between to breath and be still? do you self-acknowledge yourself for your accomplishments? And they can be the littlest of things which, to me, are really big. For instance, wow! I want to acknowledge myself for allowing myself to sleep in an extra 30 minutes this morning. What do you want to acknowledge yourself for today?
After finishing Vibrational Healing Massage Therapy Level 2 this past month, I have gotten used to being gentle with myself. When emotional things come up and/or I get triggered by something someone said or did, I stop and give myself space by breathing and being with the emotions. I don't judge it or criticize myself for feeling this way or that. It's just the way it is.
So when we got let out early on Sunday, I decided I was going to do whatever made me happy. I spent time with my husband, went and got ice cream from Ben & Jerry's and lounged on the couch watching movies. I knew I had other things I "should" be doing, but I was like, "Fuck it!" I need this time to process, relax and reboot myself after such a busy, emotional weekend. I woke up on Monday feeling great! I never feel energized on Mondays and this was the first time in a LONG time I did. I have to thank myself RIGHT NOW that I took the time to be gentle with myself with everything I'm doing. Hell! I work full time, go to massage school and teach a private yoga session once a week. There must be time for me!
It's good to stop and ask yourself what you want and what you need. are you always constantly going to one thing and then the next? or are you stopping in between to breath and be still? do you self-acknowledge yourself for your accomplishments? And they can be the littlest of things which, to me, are really big. For instance, wow! I want to acknowledge myself for allowing myself to sleep in an extra 30 minutes this morning. What do you want to acknowledge yourself for today?
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