I had a hard time falling asleep last night. I feel after the weekend I had at the Butoh Ritual Mexicano workshop, I'm still feeling everyone's energy and there was a point last night when I wanted it to stop. Of course, I have many people I love with me within my heart, but I've learned how to guard and shield myself in a healthy way, so I don't take on others' energy. However, I let my guard down over the weekend and it drained me. I have continued to take care of myself since then, but last night was intense and just loud. Making all those connections with people was truly powerful, beautiful and profound, but I feel I took on too much at a point.
Now I feel I'm recovering on an energy body level, not quite all physical and mental/emotional. Last night, I was still with everyone and they were with me. There was this sense of attachment which could have been both positive and negative. Healthy and unhealthy. I don't like it and I like it. It's a true paradox I find myself in now and for quite some time. I'm going to seek advice from my friends who are energy workers and deal with this on a daily basis. I know it'll be okay, it's just an uneasy feeling.
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