I'm so grateful for all the birthday wishes I got yesterday. I really love facebook for that! It really makes you feel so special and popular when all the people you know in your life write wonderful things on your personal wall. It really made my day.
I'm also grateful for my husband, and all that I have: an apartment near Golden Gate Park, a great job, my cats, my car, my family. I was reading a post from one of the blogs I follow this morning and it was about loving everything that you have already in your life, and focusing on the good things. It was a great reminder, even though everyday I focus on at least one thing going well, I can find myself focusing on what I don't have or what's bad on some days. At least I can catch myself now when it happens. I can refocus and redirect my attention, and if it's difficult I get support from my wonderful community. We all fall into that every now and then, and it's okay! Sometimes we have to be in the funky feelings to get to the more joyous feelings. Allow yourself the space and time, but also be aware of how long the funky ones last.
What are you grateful for in your life?
Showing posts with label birthday. Show all posts
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Friday, June 17, 2011
Friday, June 18, 2010
A VERY Happy Birthday to me!
June 16 was my birthday and it was very happy. I took the day off from work, which was very necessary. I think everyone should have their birthday off to do whatever they want to do for themselves. I mean it is probably one of the most important days of your life! You were born! Celebrate it!
I decided for my birthday I was going to pamper and nurture myself. I started my day having a relaxing, quiet morning with my husband (who also took the day off! I love you, Joe!) drinking tea and eating breakfast. Then I had a massage at 11:15 a.m. It was originally at 11:00 a.m. and scheduled for 90 min, but, due to some last minute schedule conflicts, they could only give me an hour. Instead of getting huffy about it, I was understanding to the spa receptionist, explained it was my birthday, and ended up getting $10 off. So everyone won! The massage was EXACTLY what I needed. I literally melted into the table.
Then Joe picked me up and we went to Best Buy. I received some birthday money from family, so I bought the Nintendo Wii. I can't remember the last time I bought a "toy" for myself. Something really fun. After the pampering I got from the massage, it was time to nurture my inner child and buying the Wii was a great start. We met up with my friend, Sarah at the SF Giants County Fair, a mini carnival with rides, games and carnival food. We went on the swings, which is always fun because it lets you be that little kid and start yelling things like ,"Weeeeeeee! and Yaaaayyyy!" We viewed the petting zoo, which was a little depressing so I won't go into that. The best part was the Bumper Cars. I was laughing so hard I couldn't control that car for the life of me. Then you look at your friends and they're laughing so hysterically, you just do the same. Lastly, we ended with a sno cone, which, for some reason I couldn't keep off of me. Then again, I was wearing a white shirt; maybe not the best idea.
Now on a sugar-water high, we walked along the bay looking out at AT&T Park. It was a gorgeous day. What more could I ask for!
Something definitely shifted inside me after this day. It's as though my inner child had been screaming for attention for a long time, and I finally let everything else go to acknowledge and nurture it. For the past few years, a lot of shifting has occurred in my life, and sometimes we forget those simple, little things that are so big. Even though, we're a certain age, it shouldn't stop us from showing our inner child. I turned 32, but I allowed myself to be 12 and even younger. Yes, things have happened to us in our childhood that may have left scars behind, or wounds that may have been left opened. I know I've reopened some of those wounds in order to heal from certain events from my childhood, but the most healing was I got to be fun, playful, giddy, excited, surprised and child-like again. I didn't once worry about anything "grown-up." Why not do this more often.
I decided for my birthday I was going to pamper and nurture myself. I started my day having a relaxing, quiet morning with my husband (who also took the day off! I love you, Joe!) drinking tea and eating breakfast. Then I had a massage at 11:15 a.m. It was originally at 11:00 a.m. and scheduled for 90 min, but, due to some last minute schedule conflicts, they could only give me an hour. Instead of getting huffy about it, I was understanding to the spa receptionist, explained it was my birthday, and ended up getting $10 off. So everyone won! The massage was EXACTLY what I needed. I literally melted into the table.
Then Joe picked me up and we went to Best Buy. I received some birthday money from family, so I bought the Nintendo Wii. I can't remember the last time I bought a "toy" for myself. Something really fun. After the pampering I got from the massage, it was time to nurture my inner child and buying the Wii was a great start. We met up with my friend, Sarah at the SF Giants County Fair, a mini carnival with rides, games and carnival food. We went on the swings, which is always fun because it lets you be that little kid and start yelling things like ,"Weeeeeeee! and Yaaaayyyy!" We viewed the petting zoo, which was a little depressing so I won't go into that. The best part was the Bumper Cars. I was laughing so hard I couldn't control that car for the life of me. Then you look at your friends and they're laughing so hysterically, you just do the same. Lastly, we ended with a sno cone, which, for some reason I couldn't keep off of me. Then again, I was wearing a white shirt; maybe not the best idea.
Now on a sugar-water high, we walked along the bay looking out at AT&T Park. It was a gorgeous day. What more could I ask for!
Something definitely shifted inside me after this day. It's as though my inner child had been screaming for attention for a long time, and I finally let everything else go to acknowledge and nurture it. For the past few years, a lot of shifting has occurred in my life, and sometimes we forget those simple, little things that are so big. Even though, we're a certain age, it shouldn't stop us from showing our inner child. I turned 32, but I allowed myself to be 12 and even younger. Yes, things have happened to us in our childhood that may have left scars behind, or wounds that may have been left opened. I know I've reopened some of those wounds in order to heal from certain events from my childhood, but the most healing was I got to be fun, playful, giddy, excited, surprised and child-like again. I didn't once worry about anything "grown-up." Why not do this more often.
Friday, June 4, 2010
Spending on myself
since a lot of money stuff has come over the past month, spending any money on myself has been at the WAY bottom of the list. so. that right away, doesn't feel good. yes, i have bills to pay, but so does everyone, right? I want to enjoy life; not let something like paying bills get in the way. it has to be done. it's an ongoing thing.
my birthday is coming up in a couple weeks ( a week and a half). my husband had suggested going to a nice bed and breakfast somewhere along the coast. well, my "money program" kicked in and said, "No Way are you going anywhere! It's going to be expensive and a waste of money". Okay, that makes me feel like shit right away. In fact, the tears are coming. it's a special day to be celebrated; so why these beliefs? where did they come from? I'm SO DONE! i know i've said that before, but it keeps coming up for me. what is this force trying to teach me?
I could read the book on it; go to a workshop on it; and continue to process it with my therapist. I know I've made some progress, but when I find myself right back at those negative thoughts and beliefs, it feels like I've taken a step back. The flow is being cut off. Something is causing me to paddle up the river. Ugh.
Since my birthday is coming up, I began to think about what I want to spend on myself. First of all, I'm taking the day off because it falls on a Wednesday and I'm NOT working, so that's a start. I keep seeing specials for spas and massages, so I think I'm going to go to a spa for a part of the day, get me a massage, maybe a facial and my toes done. That right away made me feel better! Regardless if my husband wants to treat me or help me out with it, I AM GOING TO LOVE IT! I want to ALLOW myself to spend money on myself. I want to pamper and LOVE myself on MY DAY. I want to APPRECIATE and ACCEPT myself for where I'm at. We all know the saying, "we only live once." But what does that really mean? I could analyze it but I'm not going to.
How do you feel when you spend on yourself? How often do you do it? What feelings come up? I would love to know, even if this isn't a problem for you.
my birthday is coming up in a couple weeks ( a week and a half). my husband had suggested going to a nice bed and breakfast somewhere along the coast. well, my "money program" kicked in and said, "No Way are you going anywhere! It's going to be expensive and a waste of money". Okay, that makes me feel like shit right away. In fact, the tears are coming. it's a special day to be celebrated; so why these beliefs? where did they come from? I'm SO DONE! i know i've said that before, but it keeps coming up for me. what is this force trying to teach me?
I could read the book on it; go to a workshop on it; and continue to process it with my therapist. I know I've made some progress, but when I find myself right back at those negative thoughts and beliefs, it feels like I've taken a step back. The flow is being cut off. Something is causing me to paddle up the river. Ugh.
Since my birthday is coming up, I began to think about what I want to spend on myself. First of all, I'm taking the day off because it falls on a Wednesday and I'm NOT working, so that's a start. I keep seeing specials for spas and massages, so I think I'm going to go to a spa for a part of the day, get me a massage, maybe a facial and my toes done. That right away made me feel better! Regardless if my husband wants to treat me or help me out with it, I AM GOING TO LOVE IT! I want to ALLOW myself to spend money on myself. I want to pamper and LOVE myself on MY DAY. I want to APPRECIATE and ACCEPT myself for where I'm at. We all know the saying, "we only live once." But what does that really mean? I could analyze it but I'm not going to.
How do you feel when you spend on yourself? How often do you do it? What feelings come up? I would love to know, even if this isn't a problem for you.
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