Gratitude to the MAX

I'm so grateful for all the birthday wishes I got yesterday. I really love facebook for that! It really makes you feel so special and popular when all the people you know in your life write wonderful things on your personal wall. It really made my day.

I'm also grateful for my husband, and all that I have: an apartment near Golden Gate Park, a great job, my cats, my car, my family. I was reading a post from one of the blogs I follow this morning and it was about loving everything that you have already in your life, and focusing on the good things. It was a great reminder, even though everyday I focus on at least one thing going well, I can find myself focusing on what I don't have or what's bad on some days. At least I can catch myself now when it happens. I can refocus and redirect my attention, and if it's difficult I get support from my wonderful community. We all fall into that every now and then, and it's okay! Sometimes we have to be in the funky feelings to get to the more joyous feelings. Allow yourself the space and time, but also be aware of how long the funky ones last.

What are you grateful for in your life?

sleep

I couldn't sleep last night, which never happens to me. I thought maybe it was the cheeseburger I ate for dinner (red meat is a rare for me). I felt warm, but not hot. I could hear and feel gurgling in my stomach, liver/gallbladder area. My mind was going a mile-a-minute. It was just random thoughts and things that occurred that day. Nothing that I was worried about. It was more about things I was excited about. Things that I will be doing soon that feed my passions. Maybe that's why I couldn't sleep. I was too excited about stuff I was enjoying. Usually it's the opposite when you can't sleep. Right? I never have this problem, so it's all new to me. I tried my essential oils. Nothing. Meditation. Nothing. What did it? Watching The Simpsons. Love it! I went to the couch and put on the 13th season. I think I dozed 3/4 of the way through an episode. I went back to bed, and there was still gurgling going on.

I read somewhere that if you have an overactive liver, it can keep you awake at night. At least that's what Chinese Medicine says. It makes sense because liver and gallbladder-emotionally-have to do with fear, irritability, indecision, anger. So how could one sleep if they're feeling like that?

Sleep is very important to me. So when things like this occur, I pay attention. I pay attention to everything. What I ate; what I did that day; what happened that day; where I went; and what people I interacted with. I still don't really know what it was. And that's fine.